Talking about... multiple topics (July 12, 2026)
the title is what im going to do here so... .hiiiii !!
recently i went through something that i didnt expect to happen as soon, it was so sudden that my mind still hasn't started to think about it, its one of those things that make you want to change for the better, its better not to think about this as im not actually sure when it will really hit me
im going to change the topic.
i don't know, i felt like talking here for a bit
soooooo these past few months i have started to feel the need to interact way more than i used to, i have been scrolling on twitter, gamejolt and bluesky liking posts, and following people, i don't really know what the reason for this is, but it just happened, i used to post and rarely interact, i feel like im improving a bit!
I have been trying really hard to get better at talking to people, because even a simple dm from people that i know, even if they know me in real life, has been extremely hard for me to answer, but i'm trying! something that i have actually improved a lot at is not feeling terrible when i make the smallest mistake you can imagine, one of those could ruin the day for me, and all future days where i remember what happened, but some of those memories are coming in my mind recently and they don't affect me as much anymore, which im very happy about, i have managed to somehow make them not matter as much anymore
I've been thinking about 'Our Cooking Dream', every day I think about what changes it needs, and how I could achieve the best result. One of the things that I'm sure about, is that it isn't for everyone, my idea is to make a simple game, and by that I'm trying to make something where you can "waste" your time, it won't have a lot of story, and by that i mean, that I want to focus on the small things that make me enjoy a piece of media, such as characters!
Don't you like when you can interact and see characters change over time? Or just enjoying special moments with them, I'll put it in different words, don't you miss the moments were you know you were happier? I want to focus on why things felt better, and how things feel now... or at least that how i thought about it right now !
Well, i dont really know how things will go, but i want to make a game that makes people feel like the games, movies, anime, anything that has made me feel better, i don't think i have talked enough about bocchi the rock, so i'll do it now.
That anime has genuinely improved my life for the better, please stop reading this, and if you are having trouble, or think you are not enough, or are an introvert like me, add it to your watch list. No spoilers, but it has improved so much about my life, how i feel, and about my dreams, every time i go back to those scenes, i start to feel something, that something that makes you keep going, it's hard to explain, but if it hits you, you will feel it.
I really want to make something that will make people feel something. You know, i have been a game dev for 10 years, "youtuber" for 12, and in this time, i have realized that i haven't done as much as others, games? i have been asked in real life about my games, and most of the time i think about how i don't have too many that i would be proud of to showcase, even fnaf fangames, i only have released a few!
I know my audience is small, and most of them follow me because of fnaf, and i won't treat them as dumb, if theres a chance someone will give me their time to try or see or even think about something else that i made, i want that thing to be 100% worth their time, I'm completely sure that 'Our Cooking Dream' will flop, it will, however, i'm not making it to become popular or to get money, there is a reason behind all of this
I think this got extended way more than i expected, so thank you for reading, i don't think too many people will find this so i appreciate your time, i hope i can post some more interesting stuff next time!